There's a difference between happiness and craziness.

I am going to tell you about some things I have learned in the past year and a half when it comes to men.

When you go through a breakup, block them. It's not harsh.

In today's society you always see couples breaking up and getting back together. Social media always adds to relationship drama. When you break up with someone, it's hard to get away from them because you're still friends on Facebook, and you follow them on Twitter.  BLOCK THEM. I know this is harsh, but if it wasn't for my ex (that I dated for 2 years) blocking me on Facebook, I'm sure that it would have taken me longer than it did to get over him.  I wasn't constantly looking at his profile (come on ladies, we all do it).  It was the best meanest thing that he had ever done to me because it allowed me to not think about him everyday like I used to. I didn't see him in person, and I didn't see him on Facebook. Time apart from them is good.  Yes, it might get lonely, and it sucks, a lot. But before you get lonely and text them or creep, remember the bad times and the reason you broke up.  Here's one quote that I love to reference when I talk about this:

Ups and downs in a relationship are not daily.
No I am not saying that a relationship is never going to have ups and downs, but for the love of all that is good, that doesn't mean daily or weekly ups and downs. Some couples breakup and makeup all of the time like that's healthy. It's not. It's stress. Breaking up and getting back together only adds to the problems. Yes, we all have problems in relationships, but if you constantly are having them with your boo every day or every week, you might need to reevaluate your situation. If he keeps making the same mistakes, he's not going to change like he promises. I know that from personal experience. And you know what? No one should have to change for you. You shouldn't have to change for them. Crying every other day for three weeks is more than just not fun; it's mentally and physically exhausting. And not healthy.

The happiest you that you can be is yourself. Everything else falls into place after that.
This, ladies and gents, is the most important lesson I have learned.  At the current moment, despite my allergies, I still feel a swelling happiness inside me when I think about my life.  And it's all because I have been nothing but myself.  This applies to every part of your life, not just relationships.  I am not scared to admit that on a regular basis, I watch cat videos to laugh.  Watching commercials is more fun to me than actually watching a show, and looking at advertisements are better than reading the magazines. That is me.  Not only do my friends know it, but my boyfriend does.

What I cannot stress enough to someone is the fact that the person you choose to be with needs to love every part of you all the time. All of your faults.  My boyfriend and I have been dating for about nine months, and we have gotten into maybe 3 arguments. Not fights, just arguments. We try to work things out instead of yelling about them. He has never tried to change me, and I would never try to change him.  That's how it should be. I am not saying that this is meant to be or I'm going to get married, but I am happy now, and that's all that matters. I feel like I am in a wonderful healthy relationship, and that is because we communicate, we accept each other, and we want each other to be happy.  I know that everyone deserves this. Not the stupid, breakup, makeup, crying, fighting, "but we love each other so much" crap that I see so much of.

IOS7

Why hello there.

I just got the new iOS7 update.  For anyone who doesn't know, that's the new Apple iPhone software.  I didn't think I liked it and then I started playing around with it, and I actually really enjoy it. The design has a certain, simplistic value to it. And I really enjoy that. I'm going to be honest, the white against the blue in the messages gave my eyeballs some getting used to, but I really like it.  I feel like the 2D concept messes with my depth perception. Personally, I like it.  I think people are hating on it because it's different and new and they aren't used to it yet.  And it's simplistic and I've heard that people don't like the "childish" look to it.

In other news, I get to go to two formals this semester, not including Brenden's! That excites me.  Also, I bought shirts with my Greek letters on them.

I'm super stoked about that.

But those are just some random thought. That's all for now.

Pi Beta Phi!

Sorry I've taken so long to post! Bid Day was amazing! I joined Pi Beta Phi!

I'm so excited! I don't really have much to say but I do want to say I'm really excited! Oh, I already said that. I'll post more later, but for now, here are some pictures.

The longest week of my life.

Hello everyone (specifically Granny, since I know for a fact that she reads this.)

Well, this week I went through recruitment for Ball State to join a sorority. It was a very tedious process, and I definitely second guessed myself a lot this whole week.  It was a mutual selection process where I would select the ones I wanted and the sororities would do the same. It was difficult when I found out that certain sororities didn't want me back, just because I thought we had gotten along and made a connection.  Thoughts would cross my mind; "Am I not good enough? Why didn't they like me? Maybe I'm not as special as I like to think that I am."  I kept a positive outlook on the whole process though, just because I like to think that I keep a positive outlook on my whole life. 

Today was the last rounds, preference rounds. I picked my top two sororities and then spent an hour with them meeting the girls and learning of their philanthropies. It was a wonderful experience because I was able to go to the top two sororities I picked which was a great feeling. I loved both dearly, and I can't imagine how I will feel about them once I get my "bid" tomorrow. It was outrageously difficult ranking both of them because I had felt a connection to both.  In the end I had to pick one over the other, and now I cannot wait to see if they felt that connection with me too.  I won't spoil the surprise as to which one I picked until tomorrow.  I would be happy with either or, and I want to keep my thoughts to myself just to be safe. 

Tomorrow, AKA Bid Day.     This is where we get a wonderful white envelope and inside it tells us where we got a Bid from, or an invitation to join a sorority.  The we walk to the Ball State Quad, where we each have our sororities with balloons and signs and tshirts waiting to welcome us. I cannot tell you how long this 19 or so hours is going to be until then. 

Other than that, my job, my boyfriend, and my grades are all wonderful and going great. This week has been very difficult and tiresome and I've been stressing out and worried, but it will all be worth it tomorrow. 

Oh, and lets all gush about how adorable and wonderful Brenden is. I can't believe I get to call him my boyfriend. I wouldn't have gotten through the week without him.

Until another day! 

My birthday, and a late night blog

For those of you who care, here is an update on my life. I finally have settled in. Above is my apartment. BUYING YOUR OWN TOILET PAPER SUCKS. And now I have to remind myself that I can't fall asleep with the light on because I have to pay for electricity. And the maintenance guy hasn't fixed our garbage disposal so that's super annoying waiting. But other than that stuff, I'm kind of in love with everything in my life right now. I will show you in pictures.

Brenden was with me for a good portion of time before school started. I was pretty happy because we didn't fight at all, and that's a wonderful sign. He's completely adorable and lovely. I don't think I'm in the honeymoon phase anymore, but I still can't get over how cute he is and how lucky I am.

Brenden also got me this wonderful mermaid necklace for my birthday. He didn't know my birthstone so he just matched the gem to my eyes. Cheesy but really cute. I love it, not only because it's a mermaid but because it shows that he actually put thought into it. He's a complete gem. 

It was also my birthday on the 16th. My best friends from home came to visit and my friends from school were there as well.  My school friends made me a "Cinderella" Cup for me. It was a wonderful night!

Classes are wonderful. I only have one class a day, and I'm taking all journalism classes. I applied for a job as a Digital Corps Apprentice position, and I'm hoping so much that I get the job. My job would be just to learn about design and advertising. In this job I would get certified in different types of programs for my major. How much fun would that be!? AWESOME, right? It sounds like a dream job. Again, fingers crossed. 

I have a great apartment, great friends, and a GREAT boyfriend. My classes are also wonderful, and my job might be wonderful if all works out. 

Quick Update, I guess

Hello everyone, aka, people who sometimes glance at my blog.

I'm just going to do bulletin points and give an update about what's going on, because I should be sleeping.

• Like my last post stated, I'm in love with Jennifer Lawrence. She is my role model and I will model myself after her. I don't want to be her, but I'm going to look up to her.
• I move into my apartment tomorrow (Saturday.) THAT IS CRAZY. I am also freaking out because all of my furniture is being shipped to the Muncie Walmart, and it needs to be here by tomorrow. However, as of right now according to Fed-Ex, its in Independence, KY. So let's all pray that it gets there in time. 
• We also have our Comcast to worry about. Apparently the past tenants haven't cancelled their subscription so we can't start ours until they do which is crap! I need my wifi for all of my business and applications that I'm monitoring at the moment. So that's unacceptable. 
• My room is pretty packed up. Tomorrow I will shower and then pack up the last things I have not packed yet, like my toiletries. but basically the wait is over. I move in at noon Saturday, and I couldn't be more excited.
• I found a paid internship in Muncie for the school year, so I'm tweaking my resume and my work samples to try and get it.  It's an internship at a t-shirt company; I would be helping them design t-shirts. Which honestly sounds like a blast if I get the internship. I can't wait to hear back from them and I'm kind of nervous about it. But I updated my website! Check it out!
• I have all day tomorrow to burn 5 CDs of photos for people. I'm still kind of not sure as to how I'm going to get all of them to people. But who knows, I will figure it out. 
• I get to see Brenden on Saturday; I haven't seen him in 2 weeks.
• I get to see Danielle as well. I haven't seen her since MAY!
• I've also been obsessed with Shark Week. I've learned about the 100 ft shark, Megladon. He sounds amazing and I really hope that he didn't die and he's still wandering the huge part of the oceans that we haven't explored. 

So that's kind of a brief update of my life. Nothing really funny or interesting. Everything is just kind of pivotal at the moment. Lots of last minute packing.

Until we meet again. 

Jennifer Lawrence

"Why aren't you laughing at me? Everything I say is funny and adorable."

She's awesome. Seriously.  She seems so down to Earth.  If I wanted to be anyone famous, I would be Jennifer Lawrence.

“I wrap myself up to look like Lord Voldemort so that they can’t see anything because the thought of giving them a picture that will make them money absolutely infuriates me.” – to Entertainment Weekly about what she does to keep the paparazzi away

I love all of the movies that she is in. 

She will always be my woman crush.  And she's beautiful. I mean look at her! We both love food and cake balls. She reminds me of myself. Not being conceited or anything.

“I always feel like an idiot every time I fly first class because I’m a kid. And I just sit there, and everyone’s got their newspapers and they’re on the computer, and I’m like, ‘Can I get a coloring book, please? Can I get some crayons?’” – to Jimmy Fallon about her flying routine

”I hate saying, ‘I like exercising’ — I want to punch people who say that.” – discussing her workout routine

So conclusion: Jennifer Lawrence. My Idol and Role Model.